英语翻译Moring,Mr balma.it's raining outside,as before,when i op

英语翻译
Moring,Mr balma.it's raining outside,as before,when i open my eyes,u are still the first person i think of.but this moring,when i think of u,i am a little sad.i guess i fall in love with u seciously,i am sure now.i know i should control,shouldn't expect too much,i have nothing,i try my best to tell myself to be paitient,what i want will come soon,but i'm afraid i'll miss u if i don't tell u i care u so much.just worry i'll miss u when i get everything :-).when i know u'll have sex with ur gf,there's pain in my heart,it's normal for u to do that,u are real lover.i should know it,i shouldn't wait for ur good night everyday,or i'll bother u two sometimes,i think i am stupid,so stupid.i know u want to protect me,care me,u didn't say anything about her,but i can imagine whom u are with every night.but that's ok,as long as u are happy,i won't care so much things.maybe we are brother and sister is ok,but when u really fall in love me,tell me,i am waiting.in my world,i love the boy in huashan so much,it's worth for me to wait in my whole life.haha..u can continue ur life,but now,it's a little diffrent,i will take an important place in ur life,i believe.my smiling is just for u to make ur life more beautiful,and make u happy everyday.OK,wish u a good day,Mr balma.u can read it paitiently,haha..

早上好,芭玛先生.现在外面正下着雨.之前,我一睁开眼第一个想到的人就是你.但是今天早晨,当我想你时有点悲伤.我想我是深深爱上你了.我非常确定,是的.我知道自己应该控制,不能奢望太多,我一无所有,我试着告诉自己要有耐心,我要的很快就会到来.但我真怕不告诉你就会失去你,我太在意你了,我担心我一失手就会失去.当我得知你与你女友有性关系时,我真是心痛,你做这些是正常的,你们是真正的情侣.我应该明白不应该期盼拥有你,不应该不时地去打扰你们两个的生活.我真笨,真笨.我知道你想保护我,关心我,不向我提起她,但我能想像你每晚和她在一起.我们能做兄妹也好,但如果你是爱我的请告诉我,我等你的回答.我的世界里,一个在华山的男孩值得我用一生去等待.哈哈.你可以继续你的生活,但此刻有所不同,我会在你的生活中占有一席之地的,我相信.用我的微笑去使你每天的生活更加美好和快乐.好了,希望你一天顺利.芭玛先生,你要耐心读哟...